It has been a while! Both on here and social media, on all of which I have been unusually quiet over the past month and a half.
I took a little hiatus from social media starting June 18th, and really enjoyed it as my last month in Atlanta quickly came to an end.
I was not anticipating staying off of social media for as long as I did, but then lots of things began happening, very quickly, and I found myself a bit overwhelmed with life, and just needing a bit of solitude and self care. So I stayed quiet, letting myself feel what I needed to feel, and doing what I needed to re-connect with myself.
Now I am here to share with all of you, what has been happening in my life in July 2020.
On the 13th I had a wonderful picnic in the park consisting of sake and Chinese dumplings, potstickers, and eggplants with one of my dearest friends. It was a wonderful time, and the perfect way for us to say goodbye.
I was devastated.
He is doing really great with his career and feels like he is so close to accomplishing what he wants, and is finally where he wants to be, after over a decade of tattooing. If he quits now and moves back to Ohio, he will never know how far he could have got in his career. We had also been fighting for a while, and he told me that he wants us to both take this time and figure out what makes us happy.
Last week he began his one year lease at his new home in Georgia.
I still have a bit of whiplash- it all happened so suddenly, and I am still stunned and confused.
The trip back to Ohio took 12 hours, with the only stops being for gas, and bathroom breaks for me and Rocco. It was exhausting, terrifying (I've never driven a box truck before!), and a bit empowering.
I have not cried once since the morning that I left. Considering I cry regularly at commercials, I believe it's because I am still in a bit of shock. I am also not exactly 100% sure what is happening, I have kept very busy since getting back to Ohio, and I have been feeling so many emotions that range from anger to happiness, and everything in-between.
Being here has been good for my soul.
I am basically starting over, and there is a large amount of uncertainty;
I have decided to retire from waitressing, and have no idea what I want to do instead.
I have no car.
I am 33 years old, back living with my parents.
I am not living with my husband-we're not even in the same state-and I have no idea what is going to happen between us.
And surprisingly, I'm not freaking out.
I am instead choosing to look at this time as an exciting season for me to start fresh, and do whatever it is my heart desires (but I am sure some freaking out will happen once the dust has settled)!
All your kind words and concern has meant more than you could ever know.
Be sure to follow me on Instagram to keep up with my daily life as I have a blast getting situated back in the country, and try to sort my life out! See you soon!
Peace Love and the July 2020